More often than not, I ask myself: “what on earth are you doing?”. Again, more often than not the answer I give to myself is “beats me”. When I give myself that answer I usually turn to music, books, photography, and silent thought. Sometimes, when I feel really anxious I end up feeling lost and end up doing nothing and hoping for something/someone to pull me out of that sad sad pit that is hopelessness. Most people, if not all, get that feeling I’m sure. Once in a while that saviour comes along and pulls you out of that pit, but usually one ends up moping for a while and then they get over it. Usually. Sadly (and at the same time, wonderfully) that’s life. The only comment/advice I can give to speed up the process is to find something that will keep you busy in a meaningful way. Better yet, find multiple things that keep you busy in a meaningful way. For me, this usually involves turning to photography, reading about something worth knowing (I borrow a lot of books), getting down with music (both in public and in private), popping a harmonica in my mouth, and deep & meaningful conversations with other people (insert gagging sound here).
Well, I’m on the next paragraph and I thought of something else that might help with getting out of that unhappy pit of depression. Go to/find your comfortable place. Mine happens to be the Central Library in Downtown Vancouver. All the books in bookshelves bring to me a sort of nostalgic feeling that makes me giddy with excitement. Look kids! Knowledge! Speaking of books and libraries, here’s an image that makes me smile (please excuse the profanity, 18+!):
Now that’s a good laugh.
As for the photo of the two motorcycles, I took it the other day with the help of my brother in the afternoon. We brought our bikes out just for fun.
What do I want to be? I want to be free to help other people. That’s all.